Maybe I need to take some further time off, or maybe I just need to stop trying to write while I’m watching a football game. I do, however, need to complain about something. Something I have come to expect and tolerate are the hallucinations I experience. I know I have written about this before, or at least mentioned it. I see things out of the corner of my eye. I also hear things. For the past two to three days the visual hallucinations have been more intense. Not only am I seeing things out of the corner of my eye, I’ve been seeing them right out in front. It is mostly a case of seeing something and interpreting it as something else. Like the coat rack in the hallway, I know it’s there, but when I come around the corner someone is standing there. It just happens for a split second, but it is enough to freak me out. Sitting in my room, I am in front of a bank of windows that faces the driveway and the road. There are trees and birds and bushes etc. So, I always turn my head and look when a car goes by. If the birds are moving in the tree or bushes I look because I think it is a car. Wind blowing in the trees…… pretty much movement of any kind draws my attention. This also happens when I’m out. I’m not really sure why it happens. I don’t think it’s dangerous, it’s just really, really, really annoying. The auditory hallucinations are not as bad. In white noise situations I hear my name called or a faint hint of music. When it’s quiet is when I have the most issues because it usually happens when I’m trying to go to sleep. When it’s quiet I hear distant music and sometimes people talking and my name being called. All in all, it’s not the end of the world for me. But I will be addressing it with my psychiatrist when I see him next week.
Does anyone out there have hallucinations and/or suggestions how to cope with them?