Despite the bad weather today (hahahahahahaha) I was able to see my psych-doc. We talked about the hallucinations I had been having and he said that I had not been having hallucinations but what he called “Visual Illusions.” The difference, according to him, is that in an Illusion, I may perceive something but when I focus on it, it goes away or becomes what I mistook it for (a coat rack mistook for a person becomes a coat rack again), where a hallucination would still be there when I focused on it (the bug on my arm would continue to be a bug.) Another way to look at this is to say that the Illusion is a mis-perception, like the coat rack being perceived as a person, where the hallucination is a false perception, like a cat with wings, flying about the room. Also the illusion is always generated from an external stimulus and the hallucination is caused by an internal stimulus.
After a lot of discussion about this, we agreed that lowering my dose of Amitriptyline and raising my dose of Nortriptyline should solve the problem I am having with the Illusions. Hopefully it won’t cause any problems with my sleep. We’ll see.