tear me apart

tear me apart
with your well wishes
this isn’t the game
we were meant to play

build your walls higher
and I will still try to scale them
I wasn’t always there
and you were absent too
my effort to repair that fault
should at least be a token
of my intent to bridge
the chasm we are divided by

I have made every effort
that I am capable of
being shut out is nothing
I ever bargained for
if what I am is not good
enough for you and your family
I guess that is something
I am not a part of anymore

that just makes me sad

— GB

We Were Superheroes

I remember
I don’t understand
I remember it all
I don’t understand any of it

We were floating
Through this world
That didn’t have any
Consequences
We were invincible
We were superheroes

We stole more time
Than we ever deserved,
We spent it faster
Than it could tick away

There was a single
Simple moment
That told me everything
I ever needed to know
About you

You told me
The end was coming,
You didn’t shed a tear,
I was bawling,
I still do

— GB

metastasis

it metastasized to your lungs
more chemo, more radiation

it metastasized to your bones
more wasting, more weight shed

you looked sullen, you looked drawn
you looked resigned to your fate

treatments go on
seemingly without end

I imagined you were fighting
I imagined you were giving everything you had

it metastasized to your pancreas
nothings more to hang my hopes on

you gave up
I think I am starting to understand that

you metastasized to me

— GB