Soar

Soar through me
Behind me
Beneath me
Be me
So I can steal
You away
Take you to
A place where the
Wind is constant
We’ll be free
To ride the waves
With each other,
Rising and diving
Will be our religion
We will worship
In each other’s eyes
Burn for the kiss
Suffer nothing
Be everything
To each other
For each other
With each other

— GLB

in every being…

in every being…

lines and riddles
and
cries and giggles

slip quickly from hands
that don’t know
what they’re missing

soft winds
through the leaves,
kissing chimes
crystals sparkle,
whispering tiny songs
of hope
that expand with every breath
into gales strong enough
to embrace the world,
quiet enough to
reveal the sounds
of the autumn sky

— GLB

3/4 Time

We live a life filled with music
I hear you softly humming
In the wind through the trees
With my eyes closed,
In a silent room
Your voice creeps into my head
Making itself comfortable
More than a long found friend
Soon we are singing the familiar chords
That brought us together
Then, and now
The notes lilt and sway
Catch up then lay back
Waiting for that moment
To let the full orchestra in
As it speaks our tale
Forever captured in 3/4 time

— GLB

Distant

Two very good friends of mine told me in their own ways, that I have have been distant from their lives.  I took a little time and thought about how I have been behaving towards people that I hold dear and I came to the realization that I have been holding the majority of them at arm’s length, if not further.  I don’t know how it happened, this year has been about rebuilding for me.  Coming out of a bout with depression, getting up the nerve to attend a NAMI Peer Support Group, exploring options for going back to school.  All of these things were major steps in a direction that for me has been very hard.  I never thought of myself as someone who had interpersonal issues but when I look at how I interact with the outside world.  If we’re in close proximity to each other (my parents, our neighbors etc.) there doesn’t seem to be much of an issue.  Outside of that, I believe it comes down to the roles that are being played.  For instance, when I visit my pharmacy, I have, what I consider, a normal interaction.  There are no signs of hesitation or insecurity present.  On the other hand if I have a personal relationship with someone, the further away we are from each other (distance wise) the more distant and awkward the relationship tends to be (with a couple of exceptions).  What I believe this boils down to is a failure of sorts on my part.  It shows me what I need to work on over the coming months.  I need to regain participation in my interpersonal relationships.  This will be hard for me, overcoming shortcomings in parts of my life where I didn’t think there were shortcomings, always presents more than its share of challenges.

Happy Birthday to Me