I Don’t Burn Bridges

I don’t burn bridges
I let them fall to disrepair,
through disrespect and neglect
they lie fallow
gathering carpets of moss
until I sigh quietly
and push them off into
the dark brackish water
where they drift slowly
into my past

— GLB

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within/without

I am
completely spread out
in this tiny circle
pushing aside
these accouterments
of a life spent…

only to pull more out,
that is how I manage
to feel empty,
filling shelves
and boxes
with things that are
worth anything
only to me

this all exists in trillions
upon trillions
of instances,
not a single one
getting it just right

I just chose the one
closest to my truth,
wondering aimlessly
trying to match
the within
to the
without

— GLB

When I Wasn’t Looking

Brought to me when I wasn’t looking
I caught you out of the corner of my eye
You were glancing away and spinning
Spending way too long in the back of my mind

Just
Just
Just

Come back around
So you can see the joy on my face
So you can take these two tracks
….listening to your mind’s content

Come back around
So I can talk to you some more
So I can get to know that girl, I knew, again

Brought to me when I wasn’t looking
Found before I knew what was happening
I’m not a betting man
But, I dove right in with all my heart

— GLB

7 Minutes

Originally written 3-17-2018

PART I

There is a blank space
Not a slate to draw plans on
No foundation,
Not a place for hope or dreams
There is no starting place
No ending place, either
A middle space
Before the end
After the beginning,
I search for
The calm
A darkness
I pull back nothing,
An absence
That not even light can escape

PART II

There is an empty space
Not a window
Not a floor
There is no port of egress
Not even a door
There have been times
I passed this place
Never knowing it was here
I was headed somewhere different
With a plan in my mind
Looking for something different
Not a hint of where I would land

PART III

Spoken plainly…

There was no empty space
To go when I died
There was no tunnel
No bright white light
I did not experience anything
On this I can go no further
There is nowhere to go
For 7 minutes I was gone,
But I didn’t go anywhere

— GLB

Things Fail

It is horrific
To have things fail
In part, or completely,
What’s worse…
Experiencing it
While it is happening
Knowing it is happening
And not being able to
Do a thing about it

But that is not all

Then comes the shame
Then comes the regret
Then comes the embarrassment
Then comes the wondering
Looking them in the face
Did you see me?
Did you catch that SLIP?

Have I been discovered?

— GLB

I don’t know

I wish I could always have an answer to the question:

Why?

It scares me through and through
Not to know the reason
For doing something one way one day
Then doing it differently another

It feels like there is a disconnect
A piece of me that doesn’t run right all the time
When the question is put forth
I fail and resort to the sad little answer

I don’t know

— GLB

Speak

Speak
Use your voice
Use your words
Go everywhere
You ever want to go

Take me there
Show me what
I have been missing
Through the strains
Of your prose

Sing
Use your rock
Use your soul
Create a new universe
Don’t be afraid to go

Pull me into you
Show me the heartbeat
Of your sun
Let me feel
Your dark attraction
Fill my skies with
Sparks and stars

Make me yours
And I will be
Without question

— GLB